写给自己的部落格

Creep-Radiohead

2009-03-16T01:33:00.001+08:00

When you were here before, Couldn't look you in the eye, You're just like an angel, Your skin makes me cry; You float like a feather, In a beautiful world, I wish I was special, You're so fuckin' special; But I'm a creep, I'm a weirdo, What the hell am I doin' here? I don't belong here; I don't care if it hurts, I wanna have control, I want a perfect body, I want a perfect soul; I want you to notice, When I'm not around, You're so fuckin' special, I wish I was special; But I'm a creep, I'm a weirdo, What the hell am I doin' here? I don't belong here, ohhhh, ohhhh She's running out again, She's running, She runs runs runs runs... Runs... Whatever makes you happy, Whatever you want, You're so fucking special, I wish I was special; But I'm a creep, I'm a weirdo, What the hell am I doin' here? I don't belong here, I don't belong here...

2008-09-12T20:03:00.003+08:00

I am very tired, "really tired".
To me,2008 is like a very very fast paced year,the moost fuck'ed up year of my seventeen years in life.This year, i was like a robot,committing myself towards what i should do,but i got nothing back.This year is also the most "wasted" year of my life.I didn't seem to have achieved anything.I am fuck ing stressed,nowadays, i always worry about passing a subject anot.Things seems different from the past, very different.It dampened my spirit,my soul and my health.The mentality that i have is."I=failure?"Very very pissed,you yield what you grow?What bullshit.

Thoughts of regrets filled me nowadays.Poly or JC?Should i head to poly should i not granted promotion.Although some may say that i already spent a year here, just move on .But, what worries me is even if i get retained,will i get the desired result for me to enter a local U?So....I am in a dilemma now.Promos are over,yes,finally.But i screwed in many papers.I slept at approximately 2hrs a day.Then,I broke down on Wedsnesday,did not take chinese that day.I was down with fever,blood pressure 150.=>serious.Then, my physics mcq ,i forgot to shade my last five questions.So, i got 14 outta 20,which is also due to 3 careless mistakes.Then the ones which i forgot to shade ,i got 3 correct.wtf man.

Sick and tired of school, and also,Life.

What is the purpose of life,when we have to die eventually?Living is like dreaming,I mean, dreaming is better,I can dream as the King of the world.In life, we are just dwarfs, our life are manipulated by the one above us.They are the directors and us, the pawns.They choose when they will remove us from the role of his movie.ie life.So,does living make a difference to anything?I mean we have to die eventually and what is the real purpose of life?

Life=?

Please enlighten me.I a little psycho nowadays, maybe should take break liao.......

“If it’s a path that I have to go through, I’ll go through it”

2008-02-26T23:03:00.006+08:00

Hmm.Decided to post some craps as my blog is really like becoming rusty.

I was posted to Tpjc.
And luckily,i was in the same CG as 3 of my PAE friends.

Subject combination is H2 Physics
H2 Maths
H2 Economics
H1 Chemistry

And ya.Life was fun here,seriously, people here are nice and really very friendly.^^
However the school system kind of sucks.
However,i should be glad that i was able to enter Tpjc.lmao.
Well, thanks to the bonus 2 loyalty points.
If not, i wouldn't end up here.
I would end up in Srjc or Yjc instead.T.T(i was super lucky)

Although the college is like 20 odd plus old,it is currently undergoing some renovation.So, it look quite new.Unlike some schools which my friends was posted to.I heard there is a school that have a 2 lane 330m track?LMAO.

Soon(on 3rd of march i suppose), i will have a new set of Uniform.Green again!!!
However,this green is nicer.Unlike GV's green that resembles the uniform of a cleaning company, Avalon(if there's no mistake)

And we have to purchase a calculator that look really unglam.It is the size of a walkie-talkie.Just like the water-bottle phone that people in the 70s~80s use.LOL.And,it cost damn #*%&^%^@!#$.No choice,it is a need,not a want.I really prefer the sexy and slim calculator that i used during O's.xp

In a dilemna on which CCA to choose.f**k!I not qualified for Badminton.T.T

2 more weeks to the arrival of March holiday.Time really passed fast.Really hope to meet up with the PAE CG TPJC(08S19)and of course my old friends.For those buddies waiting to enter poly,enjoy your holiday and live life to the fullest.

2008-01-22T01:07:00.001+08:00

Results will be out on 24th Jan.
Time seemed to pass very quickly.
Just few more hours to Doomsday.
Some will be looking forward to their results.Yes,some.
But alas,nothing can change the grades.
It's all destined from the instant the paper ended.
Somehow,I don't feel good about it.
Seriously.......
God Bless all.

Finally, am free to update

2008-01-12T00:39:00.001+08:00

PAE had started since 2nd of January.
So far,things are going smoothly.
People in the Jc are kind, helpful and nice people.^^
These days, I.ve been playing poker cards in school as lessons have not officially started.
Tutorials will start next week.And by that time, I'll be so damn busy.Lols.
Purely looking at the timetable will kill you.
Lectures were fun.However the environment is just too cold.Instead of sweating in class like what we usually experience in Secondary school, We were shivering in the Auditorium.
So much about the Jc stuffs.

And yes, I'll went to Tp on 11th Jan.I mean,We intended to. Alton, RA, Josh, Sherman and me intended to visit the Open house.But We wanted to visit Tp later.We ended up in Tampiness SAFRA,not LAN-ing but bowling.X)
But we cancelled the trip to Tp after RA said that there was nothing there.

Results will be out soon.-__-"
I heard it'll be out in late January.
Amitofo.

Prom Night

2007-11-15T07:25:00.000+08:00

Hmm...
Firstly , I have to comment on Conrad's food.It simply is *PUI.
Not everything is not nice.But most of it is zzz, not even comparable to GVSS's canteen food.XP.

After which, many of us became possessed by ghosts, aliens or whatever. They are jumping, vibrating, shaking around.LOLs.

After the Prom Night which officially ended at about 1am, I went to Clarke Quay with some of my buddies.^^.The purpose, was to find food. We were like hungry ghost, savaging the area for food, but to no avail.The MOS.Wow, so many people, so many MATAs and also so many cabs..Believe me, the number of cabs stretch from White Sands Shopping Centre to White Sands Primary School. No joke.

After we failed to fill our tummy, we proceeded to cineleisure.However, there was nothing. We drank some beverages at a kopitiam.(But, the kopitiam doesn't serve any kopi.TMD.kopitiam no kopi?)

Then, we walked to Lau Pa Sha for dessert again.Hmmm.(we are really really hungry)

Afterwhich, we walked to esplanade and camped there till 5am?There was a retard singing at the esplanade.Hence, making our journey much less boring.XP.Then we had our BIG BIG BREAKFAST at 6am.Finally, a decent meal.Muhahahahahass.

Now, it is time for me to visit Zhou Gong.<^(00)^>

Hmmm..........

2007-09-19T23:00:00.000+08:00

Yeaaa!!!!Exams are over(Prelims only).T.T
Results are out.It seems disappointing enough though.

I managed to pass Physics, which i thought i might fail.However, i do believe that i am able to improve my Physics.I really did not put in enough effort.Haiz.17 passes.Perhaps i was lucky?LOL.My physics is really deteriorating.From A1 to C5.WTF.I really need to do some reflection.

As for the Chinese results, it doesn't matter how much i get.Chinese simply makes me sick.After i got my result, the white star fish approached me.Then, she started her nagging and started to reprimand me.I was like"WTFWTFWTF".Then, she started her old grandmother story."You know, you are an A1 student.Because you did not pay attention to my lessons for the past six months, your results plummeted."I was likeWTF she thinks she is a holymaiden?OR perhaps the descendant of guan yin?She thinks listening to her "sweet" voice warrants that you ll get an A for MT? OR maybe listening to her lullabies can revive the dead?ZZZ.*PUI!!!Anyway, i don't really expect much from my Chinese. I failed my Chinese when i was in primary school and she said that i have a good base for chinese.WTF.Was she blind?Somehow, i felt she is opposing me on purpose. I told my mum that that Beijing YU always peck on me.She said:"Ask her call me la, Why she so lor so de."I was like Aweeee.LOL.She really makes me pissed man!I ll gonna stuff a big, fat, fleshy,unriped, Indian banana into her sausaged sized mouth to stop her from crapping.Muhahahahahs

And for Emaths, i didn't do well for paper1.Haiz.Misa Cheong had high expectation of us and she said we should at least get a 75.Haiz.She was like so disappointed when she returned us the slips.And, she said paper is done worse.I, myself know that paper 2 gonna pull my pants down.T.T

WEeee~It was also the first day Mr Potato face came to my class.In fact, i feel that his method of teaching is clearer and much more concise.Hmmm.How i hope he came earlier.XP. I didn't say that i want the latter to leave earlier either.XP.

懸崖-太深-爬不出來

2007-09-16T01:01:00.000+08:00

人生不过是一场即兴
整个世界正在对我们挑衅
就算如此还是得无惧前进~

I kept looking at this.
Somehow, it seems logical and true.But, i didn't get motivated.Instead, I thought.....
We suffer so much, slog for good grade, money , fame etc.For some, just to earn a living and survive in this demanding world.
However, What is the purpose of life?
In the end, we will turn into ashes and vanish into thin air.
Our existence is for??

Haiz...
Life is just a show.I agree with this.
The way we handle situations is like directing a movie.
The angle we took it, the plot and everything, depends on how the director directs it.
So, how wonderful or satisfied you are depends on what you expect of yourself ,your life and whether you reached your expectation.Hence, to a certain extent, it's good to have high expectation.But for me.....

I have been trying hard actually, but to no avail.
Things don't come as I want them to be.
I wished to, but the results don't come.
I worked hard, but my expectation is not reached.
Maybe year 2005 was the peak of my life?I don't know.

Somehow or rather, I hope this year will be a better year, better than 2005.However, viewing from my results, things don't seem good for me.
Its like I have fallen down the cliff,跌太深爬不出來.
Someone please,throw me a rope to pull me outta this cliff.

I really hope to see LIGHT, which i didn't got to see for a year plus.

Just a glimpse.

Dear God, I am not demanding, Just a glimpse....

Surprised?

2007-09-06T16:16:00.000+08:00

OMFG.....I wasted half an hour doing this 部落格. And....it's so plain. Assistance is needed from kind souls.LOLs.